Rolling With the Punches
September 24, 2009 – 1 year, 1 month post-op (232 pounds)
The trip to Florida was GREAT!!! For the first time in YEARS i didn’t have to ask for a seat belt extender! I wanted to scream outloud the excitement that I felt when I didn’t pour over into the seat beside me! I wasn’t sweating unbearably and was able to handle my own luggage. I did miss my connection in Miami and my mom and sister had to drive from Ft Myers to get me in the middle of the night (a 4 1/2 hour round trip) and I was freaking out that I was going to be the one to ruin the surprise of the party, but we played it off pretty good and she had a GREAT TIME at her party.
There is a new found energy inside myself because I need to step up to the plate at home right now. We’ve had some physical challenges with Mark and at this point is is unable to work. This is putting a financial strain on us as well as emotionally. He must focus on his health completely so that means I need to kick back into gear here at the apartments but also pick up a part-time job to help make ends meet.
I have found myself doing the old “should have’s” and “could have’s” and catch myself. An example is I said outl oud the other day “I wish I had gotten off my butt the past few years and finally gone to nursing school”. But i had to stop myself. I was 400 pounds I could barely get out of bed and walk to the sofa because of the pain I was in there was NO WAY I could have handled a nursing job on my feet all day. Because I’ve taken off 170 pounds, the pain is mostly gone and my energy level is back up… i need to remember that things are different now and cut myself some slack.
Remembering the 12 step saying “One day at a time”… sometimes it’s “one hour at a time” or even “one minute at a time” …. but no matter what it’s always looking forward not backward!!
Kary